Making My Own Tarot Deck

I'm rolling around the idea of making my own deck of tarot cards. Not for selling or anything. The deck would be for my personal use only. Each card would be designed to match what the card represents to me, personally. I'm not entirely sure I'm going to do it. If I do, I know where I can get a professional feeling deck. Something on the Pagan Amino shared a card making website. It seems like a really good idea. But then again, I say that about everything. Just because I think it's a good idea doesn't mean it actually is. Or even if it's a great idea, that doesn't propel me forward to make it a reality. Along with my tarot deck, I'm planning to:

🍕 Do weekly tarot readings and post them
🍕 Put the writing course together & sell it as a. Zip file
🍕 Make an ebook of writing prompts (original and other people's) - free download
🍕 Put together my "how to start a blog" course and sell the PDF
🍕 Make an ebook of the writing challenge stories (sell)
🍕 Make an ebook of poetry (sell)
🍕 Create a custom set of desktop icons that will be free for download to those who are interested
🍕 A set of "Motivational images" that you can use on Instagram (generic quotes)
🍕 Redesign the resources page
🍕 Create a set of planner stickers for each month

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I'm sure there's so much more I want to do. I have a list somewhere. But every time I try to start one of these projects, I second guess myself until I just give up.

I think I already mentioned that I've been using my tarot cards a lot these days. That's why I think that would be an easy starting place for me. I'm already using them and doing my own readings. I can take a picture of the readings and share them with their meanings. I think it would be a fun way to mix up the blog.

If you're one of those people who think tarot cards are like witchcraft or just some parlor trick, I won't try to change your mind. But if you know me, you know I'm one of the biggest skeptics in the world. I don't subscribe to anything that isn't proven and even then, I'm always questioning everything. I've always been that way. To me, tarot cards help me to connect with something I already know - an inner voice. It's a voice I could hear without the cards if the noise of life didn't distract me.

That's why it's so hard for me to get anything done. There's so much noise, inside and out. I can't meditate or unplug because the internal noise is hell. Pure hell. The outside noise is draining, but it's easier to handle. I find it so hard to face the inside noise, so I do the best I cab to ignore it. Unfortunately, that means the inside voice gets ignored too.

I want to see a future for myself where balance is common place. I'm tired of being tired all the time and I'm tired because I'm always trying to hear myself through the noise.

Oh, I drew this the other day and I thought I'd share it.