He has the most beautiful eyes. Entrancing, even. In them, I can see the world. The past, the present, the future. I see every possible universe. It happens in flashes, like the big bang. Starting from there, too. I see different realities, like the way things could have been. If only circumstances had been different. Or if I had been different. That doesn't matter though. I don't get caught up on the "what ifs" of the past. Those flashes are just passing thoughts. My mind is focused on the present. 

I knocked, he let me in, but neither of us are moving past the entrance way. I only wish he'd invite me in. I want to get to know who he has become. I'm not tangled in the past, I'm not rushing ahead to the future. I'm truly just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to give this a chance. It's a risk, but I'd claim I'm worth the ride. I love hard. I didn't know that about myself until recently. I can see, looking back, things that may have come across as crazy or obsessive were really acts of passion. The pouring out of emotions that were too big to handle. It was messy, but it was real. Every once in a while, we have to take a chance on something real. Even if it's not that pretty. 

Of course, I know that everything happens for a reason, and I believe in my heart that it will work out as it was meant to. I have a heart that's full of reveries. Imagine a romantic comedy. I know that him and I could never be but that doesn't mean I can't dream... In my head, these thoughts pirouette like my mind is the greatest stage and this might be the last performance. Every moment, like it's the last.  

"This is why I walk to the ocean, swim with jellyfish. I may never get this chance again. This is why if you want to kiss you should kiss. If you want to cry you should cry, and if you want to live you should live... You don’t have to love me. You already did."

Live Live Reviewed by Ali Larsen on May 07, 2021 Rating: 5

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