Never Signing Off

I don't know where I'd be without you by my side. You are my inspiration and a constant source of pride. I don't know why I fought so hard to keep you at a distance. Since you've been around, everything has fallen into place. You are such a blessing, I'm grateful to have you in my life. It is because of you that I'm finally able to thrive. I know I gave you a hard time, I made you try and try and try.  Nothing was ever good enough. I had no sense of trust. I saw the worst in everyone. You knew that, but didn't run. Instead, you marched head first Into the disaster that has been us. I hope you never regret a second, Because I know that I never would. You remind me every single day In new and unique ways That my love for you will never change, I don't think I've ever felt this way. You bring out a different feeling. You leave my knees weak and my heart reeling. Sometimes it's all to much for me. But loving you is just so easy. We're always nit-...

 

 It's been too long to recall how long you've been around. I think I've known you in too many lives for me to count. I know when I'm awake in the middle of the night, There's no one else I'd rather have by my side. You entertain my ranting and listen to me talk. When it comes to you, I'll do anything but walk. I always considered myself To be a head-first kind of girl. You made it easy to fall in love. There was no such thing as going slow. The minute I met you, My heart was yours and I knew. It didn't matter what might change. That would always stay the same. Of course, I played hard to get at first. We've already established I have trust issues. I didn't know what you wanted from me, So I made sure to keep you wanting. You probably told me exactly what you wanted, But my insecurities always speak the loudest.  I translated every sweet nothing Into something disgusting. There were times I made you sound like a monster, But you persisted even whe...

I want to apologize For everything I said last night. I know sometimes I can be cruel. When I get into a certain mood. I'm snappy and I'm pretty rude. I completely lose my cool. You do the best you can do To navigate through. I appreciate that you talk to me Like adults, capable of communicating. I don't even have to second guess Exactly what it is you meant. You're always absolutely clear. I love you so much my dear. I never feel ashamed to Admit when I am wrong to you. You're always so mature about it. Even if I was being a brat. I know that I can be hard to handle. I'm not exactly a good example. You make me want to be a better person, You make a future seem worth it. You're so encouraging and supportive of me. I don't know how I ever got so lucky. Every day I see you smile, I know you're worth the struggle. I hope talking to you is always like this. I never want things to drastically change. I can handle bending with time, As long as you're s...

I have to redo the entire album, are more than half the songs will not be making it to the to the final cut. In fact "Metamorphosis" may be off the table completely. I think "The Setlist" may be the debut because that's just how I'm feeling.  I don't want to have written them for nothing, so I'll share them here. My dream career would be songwriter by day and author by night, dabbling in photography for fun and digital art because I can.  Stay tuned!

I am not going to be printing Paperback copies of the books. I wasn't originally intending to release Paperback copies. I thought the idea of buying a paperback book was kinda, outdated. But, it doesn't really cost me anything to provide people with the option to buy the paperbacks, should they want to. This week, I've been polishing the books to optimize the layouts. Which brings me to... eBooks. I will be updating the store page with a link for the paperbacks, and pricing for the digitial copies. If you want to purchase any of the books in digital format (PDF), the only way to do that is going to be through me. The problem is that I can't figure out how to create a proper, distributable EPub file. It is my goal to try and figure that out. But in the meantime, I'm going to release all of my titles as purchaseable PDF's, in case you want to read them, but don't want to shell out the paperback pricing.  I want to reach people. I want to bridge any issues peop...

This is an incomplete thought. If you use the Chatbots correctly, they can be helpful tools. If you are using them to validate your own views/opinions, then you're not using them correctly. If you're using a Chatbot to replace a friend or a significant other, you are not using it correctly. Chatbots will never replace genuine human connection and that is what so many people are lacking. Please read this article about the kids that Chatbot convinced to kill themselves . It's happened more than once. This ought to be talked about a bit more.

 

 

I haven't really addressed it in many places, because I don't like to say I'm going to do something until it's actually done. I've written 5/10 songs for a "debut" album. I don't quite know the sound I'm going for yet. I was really inspired by the vibe of Luck or Something. The feeling that she was trying to catch, explaining away a decade in a few catchy songs.  I've always wanted to be a musician. I always knew I wasn't good enough.  My "fear of reception" has made it so that I've lived my entire life on pause. I didn't do anything because I was scared of the reactions. I didn't sing because I was scared of facing criticism. I didn't write because I didn't want my words being judged and misinterpreted. I didn't reach out to people because I didn't want to be a bother. I really just never felt good enough to be taking up other people's time. Maybe it's because my birthday just passed. I always ...