Never Signing Off

I don't know where I'd be without you by my side. You are my inspiration and a constant source of pride. I don't know why I fought so hard to keep you at a distance. Since you've been around, everything has fallen into place. You are such a blessing, I'm grateful to have you in my life. It is because of you that I'm finally able to thrive. I know I gave you a hard time, I made you try and try and try.  Nothing was ever good enough. I had no sense of trust. I saw the worst in everyone. You knew that, but didn't run. Instead, you marched head first Into the disaster that has been us. I hope you never regret a second, Because I know that I never would. You remind me every single day In new and unique ways That my love for you will never change, I don't think I've ever felt this way. You bring out a different feeling. You leave my knees weak and my heart reeling. Sometimes it's all to much for me. But loving you is just so easy. We're always nit-...

 

 It's been too long to recall how long you've been around. I think I've known you in too many lives for me to count. I know when I'm awake in the middle of the night, There's no one else I'd rather have by my side. You entertain my ranting and listen to me talk. When it comes to you, I'll do anything but walk. I always considered myself To be a head-first kind of girl. You made it easy to fall in love. There was no such thing as going slow. The minute I met you, My heart was yours and I knew. It didn't matter what might change. That would always stay the same. Of course, I played hard to get at first. We've already established I have trust issues. I didn't know what you wanted from me, So I made sure to keep you wanting. You probably told me exactly what you wanted, But my insecurities always speak the loudest.  I translated every sweet nothing Into something disgusting. There were times I made you sound like a monster, But you persisted even whe...

I want to apologize For everything I said last night. I know sometimes I can be cruel. When I get into a certain mood. I'm snappy and I'm pretty rude. I completely lose my cool. You do the best you can do To navigate through. I appreciate that you talk to me Like adults, capable of communicating. I don't even have to second guess Exactly what it is you meant. You're always absolutely clear. I love you so much my dear. I never feel ashamed to Admit when I am wrong to you. You're always so mature about it. Even if I was being a brat. I know that I can be hard to handle. I'm not exactly a good example. You make me want to be a better person, You make a future seem worth it. You're so encouraging and supportive of me. I don't know how I ever got so lucky. Every day I see you smile, I know you're worth the struggle. I hope talking to you is always like this. I never want things to drastically change. I can handle bending with time, As long as you're s...

 

 

Hayden was looking forward to the summer break. She managed to pass all of her classes, though just barely. She knew she would have to put in twice the effort the following year. But her mind could drift from school work for a few weeks without being problematic. Rob also looked forward to the release from school. There was just a different pressure throughout the year. It wasn’t like either of them had a great start to the school year. Jessica made sure of that. She also swore to ruin their summer many times throughout the year. Unfortunately for Jessica, as soon as school ended, her family moved. They had to get away from the shame their daughter brought to the family. They moved to a new city to start over. Hayden and Rob would never have to see Jessica again. Ever. They were finally free. Hayden woke up on Saturday morning and headed to the park behind her house. She had agreed to meet Rob later, but she wanted to play on the swing set. It wasn’t common that Hayden wanted to “...

Anne invited Hayden and Liz out to brunch just before mother’s day. It was an unofficial mother’s day brunch. Hayden had a theory it was Anne’s way of comparing the relationships her boys were in. She had expressed curiosity to Hayden. She refused to answer any of Anne’s questions. She felt like it was Rob’s responsibility to tell his mother what they did or didn’t do. She maintained that every time Anne tried to corner her and ask. It was becoming frequent. Hayden met Liz outside the restaurant. Liz was pacing back and fourth. Hayden had never seen her this nervous. It was even worse than the family dinner. It was just Anne. This was more intimate. “Hey.” Hayden greeted as she approached. Liz looked over at her. “Oh thank God. I thought I was going to have to go in alone!” She exclaimed. Hayden smiled. “I wouldn’t do that to you.” She assured. Liz nodded and the two girls walked into the restaurant. Anne, Brent and Rob were already sitting at their table. Anne stood up and w...

“Here, take a look.” Liz instructed, handing a small stack of photographs in her direction. Hayden took the pictures and flipped through them. “It looks like you had a really good time.” She observed. She pulled out a picture someone had taken of the whole family. Liz’s brother was old enough that he lived on his own with a wife and a baby on the way. He looked so different from the last time Hayden had seen him. She handed the pictures back. Liz put them back into the sleeve and put it on her dresser. Her family always had pictures developed of the family trips. Liz would put them into the photo albums. It was something her mom used to do, but it had become her job as she got older. “It was so much fun.” Liz confirmed, nodding her head excessively. Hayden raised her eyebrow. “Is something on your mind?” She asked softly. Liz looked over and bit the side of her lip. “Can I tell you something?” She sighed. “Of course.” Hayden nodded. Liz was quiet for a minute. “I’m pregnant.” S...

Everyone was looking forward to March break. Hayden was planning to read through a bunch of new books. Liz had plans to go skiing with her family in Switzerland. Her father had to make a nearby work trip. She expressed disappointment that she wouldn’t be able to see Brent. Hayden informed her that Brent and Rob were going away too. Anne had already told Hayden that she planned a trip to Valcartier for the March break. It was going to be their yearly trip as a family. There was an outdoor playground in Valcartier that Anne thought the boys would love. Hayden didn’t know until the night before that she was going with them on the trip. Anne had arranged everything with her parents already. Her mother brought a suitcase into her room and told her when she’d have to be up and ready. It was supposed to be a pleasant surprise, but Hayden was thrown off. She had never been on a trip with Rob’s family. She had only been in the car with them for short drives. She knew the drive to Valcartie...