Never Signing Off

I forced myself to sit down on November 1, 2025 and start writing. I wanted to finally complete a NaNoWriMo challenge. I've been setting them for myself for years. I'd sit down, with a full plot line ready to go. But I couldn't write. I couldn't think. It wasn't because I didn't have the ideas. It was because I was horrified about the reception of my words. I was worried that people would read into anything I wrote, even if it was supposed to be fictional. I've seen too many artists go through the scrutiny and surveillance and it ruins your ability to be creative. So does "waiting". There's never going to be a "better time" to start. There's never going to be "more opportunities".  You're NEVER GOING TO BE READY.  So, why wait? I wrote Nashville Summer last year for NaNoWriMo. This year, I'm probably going to be writing book 15 in the series. I think it'll cap around 18, but I don't know. I'm not...

I love CryptTV. The stories, the monsters, the worlds... They have truly created a unique brand of horror.  But this film hits in a different way...  I wanted to share it. 

I've been working on this project for a long time. I wasn't sure it was ever going to see the light of day.  This is an autobiographical memoir focused on struggling with mental illness. If you know me, you already know I have several of them in my back pocket. I've been waiting for the day all the misery finally had a purpose.  It came from nowhere. It started so suddenly... I've been on this literary journey since November 1, 2025. This is what my personal bookshelf looks like: I won't be publishing this memoir digitally. I want to track who is reading this because the depth of my mind is dangerous and I'll need to check in on anyone who might check this project out. If you want to check it out or purchase your very own copy,  click here!

 I Am Jane Doe Before Please note: I have chosen to use this rapist’s real name because what he did was reprehensible. He deserves the shame that comes along with being a rapist. Period. I won’t sugar coat what he did. It took a long time to come to terms with what happened, but I can say it now. He raped me. It was not subjective reality or a misinterpretation as my brain tried to convince me. I was prey and he was a predator. He knew exactly what he was doing and I got caught in a bear trap. So, fuck him. He doesn’t deserve to be anonymous.  October 20, 2020. The date we set to meet for the first time. We had been talking for a few days, maybe a week. I was confident I knew where this was going, and I was willing. In theory. He showed up to pick me up in this beige station wagon from the 70’s. It even had a wooden gloss interior, like the old luxury cars had. He was wearing a gray University sweatshirt. He worked there as a professor, he told me. He was crazy smart, like mat...

I've been listening to a lot of stuff going on in the media. I try and avoid politics because my country doesn't allow free speech and I have to be careful what I say. That can be debated by other people, but I won't bother with my thoughts on th surveillance state we're all living in. But there are some opinions that are BURSTING out of me.  Lindsey Clancy I never like the argument that mental illness can be the sole cause of mindless acts. Mental illness can explain why you forget to answer texts or get angry with your spouse over a fucking dream. It's not an excuse to hurt other people. Ever. The only mental illness that I'm willing to debate is schizophrenia. I have borderline, DID, PTSD, MDD, anxiety, and panic attacks. I used to suffer from anger issues too. None of those diagnosis are a reason to hurt another person. Period. Even with mental illnesses, people need to be held accountable for the actions they take. But more, they need to be held accountable...

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I'm not a commentary person by any means. I don't normally pay any attention to celebrity gossip. I certainly give no attention to TikTok. But this came across my radar for more than one reason, in more than one circle, because it was awful.  I don't care what opinion other people have of Perez. I always thought he was a good guy. That's why I'm writing this.  I often paint the vultures in a negative light in my writing. Everyone can assume I'm including all of them. But while writing The Morgan Series, I intentionally highlighted that Mario wasn't a bad guy . Yes, the internet hated him for a while. But he's not a fucking devil by any means. He's just a messed up human being, like all of us are. For people to say that what happened is okay or for attention or however else they are trying to write it off is insane. It's not okay. Someone should have done more than report the video. Someone should have reached out to the authorities. Someone shoul...