Adventure

I feel like I've been losing my mind. 

I've taken a twisted ride in time. 

Back to the days I didn't remember, 

Forward to future I dismembered. 

I know that my chances were low, 

If I had tried, at least I'd know. 

Maybe I'd even be able to let go, 

Look forward to what the future holds. 

Instead you're just another regret

On a list that just keeps growing. 

I don't even know where to start, 

But I'm all in, following my heart. 

It might get messy, it has before. 

But I need to do this, fuck collateral. 

I'll deal with the aftermath, 

It would be the first time I stick around. 

My signature move has always been

Drop the bomb and do my spin. 

Middle finger in the air

Walking away, flipping my hair. 

No one likes that side of me, 

But I'm working on integrating. 

I have to explore each of these parts

If I ever want a healthy start. 

I'm coming back to life again, 

Like a Phoenix from the ashes. 

I understand the motivation, 

But I think it's a simplification. 

I always said it was transference.

If so, what do you represent? 

Why are you creeping back into my head

When you already made your point. 

There is no future for you and me. 

I'm not so blind that I can't see. 

I would say I'm being delusional, 

I'm holding on to letting go. 

The feeling of accepting the end, 

Is only the start of the next trend. 

Yesterday has already been decided. 

Tomorrow is just excitement. 

Absolutely any adventure could unfold. 

Every day has the potential to be gold.

It's all in how you look at it. 

Don't worry I'll get over this. 

This isn't the first time 

You've been the subject of my rhymes. 

I've been writing all this time, 

But I kept it all for just my eyes. 

Now I feel like everything I didn't say

Is holding me down every day. 

That's why I'm getting it off my chest. 

I'm putting ideas and thoughts to rest. 

I'll express everything I can. 

Then throw away the rest of it. 

I'm ready to walk with my arms open

To see what the world is offering.