My Next Project

I haven't really addressed it in many places, because I don't like to say I'm going to do something until it's actually done. I've written 5/10 songs for a "debut" album. I don't quite know the sound I'm going for yet. I was really inspired by the vibe of Luck or Something. The feeling that she was trying to catch, explaining away a decade in a few catchy songs. 

I've always wanted to be a musician. I always knew I wasn't good enough. 

My "fear of reception" has made it so that I've lived my entire life on pause. I didn't do anything because I was scared of the reactions. I didn't sing because I was scared of facing criticism. I didn't write because I didn't want my words being judged and misinterpreted. I didn't reach out to people because I didn't want to be a bother. I really just never felt good enough to be taking up other people's time.

Maybe it's because my birthday just passed. I always get reflective this time of year. I don't feel better about myself; I feel less respect for the rest of the world. With everything that is going on from politics to the economy to personal lives... It is never going to be the "right time". We have to take it. 

Sometimes, healing yourself means you have to hurt other people. Sometimes, you just have to pull the pole through and hope for the least amount of damage. What else are you going to do? The world is a shitty place and it keeps getting shitter. But I'm here. And as long I'm here, I'm struggling. As long as I'm struggling, at least I serve as entertainment to my God.

So it's not all bad.

The tentative release date is: February 22, 2027