Tell Me Why

 I feel like a crazy fucking stalker, 

Watching your Instagram like it matters. 

I know you never even post, 

But I'm watching your likes, you're reposts. 

There are people who would say I'm stalling, 

I can't accept the truth and I'm falling. 

I just want to know that you're okay, 

Even if I can't see you face to face. 

After everything you stood by me through, 

Do you think I wouldn't do the same for you? 

I don't care what's getting to you, 

I'll be here to listen, to see you through. 

I'll always be there for you. 

You are the best friend I ever knew. 

I felt so lucky this time around. 

After all the bullshit, you never backed down. 

You stood by me and helped me grow. 

I thought you were in this for the long haul. 

But I get it, I'm not even mad, 

I'm feeling a bit lost, I'll admit. 

I know you're going through a lot, 

I wanted to be supportive of it. 

You've always been there for me, 

I hope to return that nurturing. 

I never thought we'd end up this way, 

Radio silence, missing for days. 

I wasn't expecting this, 

That's why I'm so frustrated. 

All I have are endless thoughts, 

Was all of this my fault? 

I can't help but blame myself, 

My emotions have been so fucked. 

I've put a whole new level of pressure

On a relationship that couldn't take much more. 

Hopefully, one day, you'll tell me why, 

In the meantime, enjoy your life.